Last Pregnant Picture and Birth Story

Wow, I can't believe my precious baby girl is 10 days old.  It's been the best ten days of my life. Before we go on with the hospital and her birth, here is the last pregnancy shot I took right before we left for the hospital.  (sorry you get a bare belly shot, b/c that's all I took in the hurry to a last minute run to Target and then to the hospital.) 

Well, I had been going twice a week to be checked since being put on bed rest about a month ago all because my blood pressure was so high.  I went Monday, July 16, 2012, not much had changed, she was still up there and not moving down much.  They did some test and some more blood work b/c again, my blood pressure was high. I left figuring I'd go back for my appointment on Friday and then be at the hospital on Monday night, July 23rd for my induction.  Well, because I had protein in my urine and my blood pressure was so high I received a phone call personally from my doctor on Thursday, July 19th, saying that he was concerned about my blood pressure and wanted to go ahead and induce July 20th.  So I gathered my bags and headed to the hospital on Thursday night.  they gave me the pitocin Friday at midnight and we played the waiting game.  My contracts went to 2 min apart and I was 5 cm and I never felt a thing (mind you I refused drugs and was doing a natural birth)  well, the doctor came in to check me and Millie's head was becoming a bad cone-head and they said that I could be laboring for another 20 hours and she still not drop all the way b/c of the cone-head so they recommend a c-section.

I was again, planning an all natural childbirth so a c-section was not what I wanted.  But after talking to the doctor and family, I decided to move forward with the c-section b/c it was what was best for Millie.  at 4:07 p.m. on Friday, July 20, 2012 my precious baby girl was born weight 7 lb 9 oz.  She is such a blessing. 

Millie-

I am so greatful to be your Mom and to say the last 10 days have been the BEST days of my life is an understatement.  I love you baby girl more than life itself.  You are my angel.  

Love,

Mommy.

(will post tons of pics from the hospital tomorrow) 

36 Weeks

Sorry, Millie I missed a few weeks, but Momma does have pictures of your bump from those weeks.  ;)

First off, please pray for me.  I'm having some troubles with my body and pregnancy this week.  The doctor is concerned about my blood pressure, I went Friday, he is having me go back Tuesday and then if it's still high I may have to go on bed rest, which may not be a bad thing, except I need to work for the $$, but Millie's more important.  

I had a wonderful baby shower last week, hopefully I'll get around to downloading the pictures and posting about sometime this week.  


Here is week 36 bump date. 

How Far Along? 36 weeks, 2 day!!  27 days to go!!

Size of my Angel? 18.75 inches - size of crenshaw melon, 5.75 lbs. 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  About 42, so depressing

Stretch Marks? Still no PTL, I do have that Linea Nigra line, but other than that I haven't seen any stretch marks and I'm still lathering the oil and cream morning and night.  

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep?  Not getting much at all, between 50-60 hour work weeks, my body is aching but giving me problems going to sleep. 

Food Cravings? milk 

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes and feel comfortable and not being so tired. 

Symptoms? None right now, the braxton hicks have stopped, but my cervix is starting to dilate.

Belly Button? It's definitely an outie now. 

  

33 Weeks

How Far Along? 33 weeks, 1 day!!  49 days to go!!

Size of my Angel? 17 inches - size of pineapple , 4.25 lbs. 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Still refuse to weigh but it's like getting close to 40 I think, which I don't get because I'm sticking to 1800 cal diet that the dr told me too. ugh

Stretch Marks? No PTL, I do have that Linea Nigra line, but other than that I haven't seen any stretch marks and I'm still lathering the oil and cream morning and night.  

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep?  What's that?? 

Food Cravings? ice cream (which I wont allow myself to eat), milk 

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes and feel comfortable and not being so tired. 

Symptoms? Still random braxton hicks, but not everyday

Belly Button? Poking out but not too bad, hopefully it will go back in once she gets here.  

33 weeks, 1 day

I'm working on her crib, bedding and her name to go on the wall behind her crib.  Here is what I have so far.  It's still a work in progress, guess with 7 weeks to go I better get real busy.  All her clothes are washed and organized that's a start.  :)

Millie's closet (this is the 0-3 to 3-6 months) the other sizes up to 24 months are on the other side. 

Happy Friday!! 

32 Weeks!!

How Far Along? 32 weeks, 4 day!!  53 days to go!!

Size of my Angel? 16.7 inches - size of large jicama (I had to google what this is, it's a mexican yam) , 3.75 lbs. 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Still refuse to weigh but it's like 25-40 lbs I think, ugh. Which is really depressing me!!!  

Stretch Marks? No PTL, I do have that Linea Nigra line, but other than that I haven't seen any stretch marks and I'm still lathering the oil and cream morning and night.  

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep?  I've given up on a good nights sleep for many months to come. haha   

Food Cravings? fruit, ice cream, anything really really cold

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes and feel comfortable and not being so tired. 

Symptoms? I've been having some braxton hicks contractions, they're crazy random. 

Belly Button? Poking out but not too bad, hopefully it will go back in once she gets here.  

32 weeks, 1 day

31 Weeks!!!

How Far Along? 31 weeks, 1 day!!  63 days to go!!

Size of my Angel? 16.25 inches - size of four navel oranges, 3.3 lbs. 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Still refuse to weigh but it's like 34-35 lbs I think, ugh. 

Stretch Marks? No PTL, I do have that Linea Nigra line, but other than that I haven't seen any stretch marks and I'm still lathering the oil and cream morning and night.  

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell.....Her dad has tried to make an appearance in the picture and wants to change her name to Paige, the only thing I can think of is maybe add it in with Millie and be Millie Paige b/c she has to have Ladell, because it's family and it's been passed down for so long.  I love Millie, already have things monogrammed with Millie so I don't wan to give it up either.  If he sticks around through the last 9 weeks we'll see.  But I'm not sure he will! 

Sleep?  I've given up on a good nights sleep for many months to come. haha   

Food Cravings? mexican, mexican

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes and feel comfortable and not being so tired. 

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Poking out but not too bad, hopefully it will go back in once she gets here.  

Her Dad's been giving me all sorts of hell, so honestly, I don't know where we stand.  He asked me "what if we got married??"  I got quiet, I don't know about it honestly, I want to be married, but not with things the way they are, it wouldn't be good for any of us.  

Happy Memorial Day weekend Ladies!!

31 weeks, 1 day.....63 to go!!

Disclaimer: please excuse the no make-up I was in the process of getting ready.  haha

30 Weeks!!

How Far Along? 30 weeks, 1 day!!  70 days to go!!

Size of my Angel? 15.7 inches - size of a head of cabbage, 2.75 lbs. 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Still refuse to weigh but it's like 34-35 lbs I think, ugh. 

Stretch Marks? No PTL, I do have that Linea Nigra line, but other than that I haven't seen any stretch marks and I'm still lathering the oil and cream morning and night.  

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? I still haven't tried Tylenol pm but I may need to really start soon, the tossing and turning is killing me.  I hate the back pains, but they shall pass.   

Food Cravings? bread, sour candy

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes and feel comfortable and not being so tired. 

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Poking out but not too bad, hopefully it will go back in once she gets here.  

It's been a crazy last few days, her Dad and I spent 3 1/2 hours arguing last night on the phone, 1. he hates her name - I told him, fine tell me some names you like and we'll find another name.  

2. he told me I should give her to him if I want him in her life and he'll be the full-time parent- OVER MY DEAD BODY was the response.

3. It just didn't go well, he's so selfish and really neither Millie nor I need that right now.

I feel like I'm on the home stretch, had my dr appointment this morning, we're both doing great, her heartbeat is great and we're both healthy, that's all that matters.

I am so beyond ready and excited for her, my Dad should be done finishing her crib this weekend and I'll be putting it together Memorial Day weekend.  So can't wait for my sweet baby girl to get here!!

30 weeks, Day 1

28 & 29 Weeks Baby Bump & Birthing Plan

How Far Along? 29 Weeks, 4 days!  

Size of my Angel? 28 weeks - 14.8 in - size of Chinese cabbage, 2.25 lbs 

                             29 weeks - 15.25 in - size of butternut squash, 2.5 lbs

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  I gained 4 lbs since my last appointment 4 weeks ago, but dr said that's normal.  I am obsessed with calorie counting still and I'm trying to remember I have to eat those 1800 cals for her.  But I'm ready to diet asap after she gets here.  I hope I can find something that works well with breastfeeding b/c I want to bf and I want to still get the weight off asap. 

Stretch Marks? No PTL, I do have that Linea Nigra line, but other than that I haven't seen any stretch marks and I'm still lathering the oil and cream morning and night.  

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? I still haven't tried Tylenol pm but I may need to really start soon, the tossing and turning is killing me.  I hate the back pains, but they shall pass.   

Food Cravings? not much right now except I am trying not to eat too much sugar.

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes and feel comfortable and not being so tired. 

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Poking out but not too bad, hopefully it will go back in once she gets here.  

I am so ready for Millie to make her debut, I can't believe how much you can love someone that you've never met.  I am beyond ecstatic and ready for her birth. 

I am currently on my last week of birthing classes and they've been interesting.  I don't know if I've mentioned it but my birthing plan is to go natural the entire way.  This is something very personal to me and while a lot of people seem to think I'm crazy, as one lady said at the birthing classes.  This is a decision I made early on into my pregnancy and one that I really plan on trying to stick with.  I love the idea of being "free" not tied down to the bed, pump, etc.  Being able to jump in the warm shower to ease labor pains as needed and being about to walk around.  Yes, I do sound crazy to some, but this is a real personal choice for me and if it's too much to bare then I already know what I must do and how far along is too far to change my mind.  I personally don't see me changing my mind, but we shall see. 

Happy Monday Ladies!! 

27 Weeks!!

How Far Along? 27 weeks, 1 days....91 to go!  

Size of my Angel? 14.5 in.....the size of cauliflower and about 2 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Doc still says I'm doing good 

Stretch Marks? No PTL, still lathering the oil and cream on 2 x daily 

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? Still not sleeping well, also been sick this week so that's not helping either.  Doctor did say I can take Tylenol PM so I'm going to try that.   

Food Cravings? Mexican, Chick-fil-a diet lemonade

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes that I feel okay in, I wasn't back to my 8/10's when I got pregnant but I was within 10 lbs, so this is depressing.  

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Poking out more and more daily.  I'm so ready for her to be here already and when people say I really am not, I really want to be ugly and say don't tell me what I am and am not ready for.  I know there will be sleepless nights, but that doesn't concern me too much.  That's just part of the process and I already don't sleep well so it's perfect. haha

26 Weeks!!!

How Far Along? 26 weeks, 1 days....98 to go!  --YES ladies, we're in the double digits now :)

Size of my Angel? 14 in.....the size of a hothouse cucumber and about 1.75 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Doing good per doc, I still refuse to look at the scale! ha

Stretch Marks? No PTL, still lathering the oil and cream on 2 x daily (someday's just at night, but most days I do morning and night)

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? Nothing better than her sweet kicks, but waking up at 2 am every night is weird.  I'm use to not sleeping good before I was pregnant, but it's weird that it always seems to be about the same time I wake up every night now, since I've been pregnant.  

Food Cravings? Still tons of salads, spicy ranch and Mexican.... I could live on Swanky's taco salads everyday if I let myself. 

What I Miss Most? Actually, I haven't missed much this week except for the non cramps, I hate the feeling of the cramps, they're just like period cramps but I've been told it's my uterus stretching but it's been happening for days now. 

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Barely in, if I breath and  my stomach expands my belly button starts going out.  

26 weeks, 1 day....98 to GO!!

I am so excited about the future and about my precious Millie girl, I've come to peace with the circumstances surrounding us and her Father's lack of responsibilities and concern when it comes to her. While I can't say I've totally given it to God, I'm working on it.  Like I told him, you'll have to answer to why you abandoned her not me all I can do his love her and do the best I can for her.  She's my world and I couldn't imagine my life without her.  I'm so blessed Millie to be your Mom and I can't wait to meet you my little angel.  

On a sweet moment, my almost 3 year old nephew likes to talk to her, lift my shirt up and show people "there's Millie"  so embarrassing, but he's done this twice no in public, but it's cute too.  It's sweet when he tells me "I want to give Millie a kiss" then I lay on the couch, he comes up lifts my shirt to show my belly and kisses her.  It's the most precious moment and it melts my heart.

Happy Friday Ladies!! 

25 Weeks, 15 to GO!!!! and Breastfeeding Question

How Far Along? 25 weeks, 1 days....105 to go!

Size of my Angel? 13.5 in.....the size of a rutabaga and about 1.5 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Doing good per doc, I refuse to look at the scale! ha

Stretch Marks? No PTL, still lathering the oil and cream on 2 x daily (someday's just at night, but most days I do morning and night)

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? Still waking up during the night, but I love it when she's active and kicking, such as sweet feeling.  BUT, I'd like her to practice her soccer plays during the day and not at night so much.  A girl can wish  

Food Cravings? Salads, spicy ranch dressing, Mexican 

What I Miss Most? the same-being able to sleep and not feeling fat and I know this sounds bad probably, but it's true... I miss margaritas, Mexican food just isn't the same without them. 

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Still in but if I raise my shirt and look at my stomach and watch as I breath, it looks like it's going to pop out. 

Best Moment of the Week? Working with my Dad to restore her crib and restain it.     

**Still sick of the crazy rude people who have things to say like WOW you're having a baby... like back up, b/c I am just as capable of having and raising a wonderful girl REGARDLESS of whether her father chooses to be involved or not.  and if you disagree than your an idiot.  You don't have to have the DAD to make a stable health child, it's his choice and he's an ass end of story.

Millie: 25 Weeks, 1 Day

So I am planning on breastfeeding, I got the Medela pump but I've read in the book you should exclusively breastfeed for six weeks and not bottle feed.  Did anyone do this or did you do some bottles mixed in during that first six weeks...Any advise on this or what's worked for you would be greatly appreciated.  

Happy Friday!! 

24 Weeks!!!

How Far Along? 24 weeks, 6 days....107 to go!

Size of my Angel? 12.5 in.....the size of corn and about 1.25 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Still doing good so they say, I still think it's a crazy number!!

Stretch Marks? None thank you Lord, still lathering oil and cream once or twice a day...Praying that they'll stay away

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep?  I have a feeling I wont sleep good till after she's here.  She likes to keep me up or wake me up in the middle of the night kicking, she's preparing me for her arrival.  

Food Cravings? Diet coke---trying to stay away from it but I did have a caffeine free one yesterday and it was SOOOO good!!   

What I Miss Most? the same-being able to sleep and not feeling fat

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Still in but looks like it will pop one day. 

Best Moment of the Week? Finally putting it totally out there... One response from someone on facebook...."I figured something was up b/c your so obsessed with your weight and I didn't think you'd 'let yourself go'  hahaha too funny".   

**Still sick of the crazy rude people who have things to say like WOW you're having a baby... like back up, b/c I am just as capable of having and raising a wonderful girl REGARDLESS of whether her father chooses to be involved or not.  and if you disagree than your an idiot.  You don't have to have the DAD to make a stable health child, it's his choice and he's an ass end of story.

24 weeks, 6 days!!! 

23 Weeks and Counting

How Far Along? 23 weeks, 7 days....113 to go!


Size of my Angel? 11.5 in.....the size of a large mango and about 1.1 lbs 


Maternity Clothes? All


Weight Gain?  I found out I've only gained 3 more pounds so it looks like a lot of my weight I gained early on, the doctor told me yesterday some people can more in the beginning and some closer to the end.  


Stretch Marks? None thank you Lord, still lathering oil and cream once or twice a day...Praying that they'll stay away


Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell


Sleep?  Still not sleeping well, but making it work. 


Food Cravings? Sour candy - but the doctor wants me to stick with protein diet and not eat the breads and sugars, especially between now and my glucose test in 4 weeks.   


What I Miss Most? being able to sleep and not feeling fat


Symptoms? None 


Belly Button? Still looks like it's going to pop, but it's staying in there for the most part. 


Best Moment of the Week? Finding the perfect bedding and cleaning her crib to restore and paint it.   Knowing that it's only 16 more weeks from tomorrow till my due date is crazy, I feel like I have SO much to do and so little time!!! 

26 weeks, 7 days

(side note: I thought I wasn't showing too bad, so I thought maybe I wont get too big in the stomach and the doctor kindly told me wait till I hit 30 weeks, she'll explode and really show she's there.)  hahaha

22 Weeks

Wow, it's hard to believe that I'm at the end of 22 weeks.  I really should do these at the beginning of the weeks, it's just hard to remember to take a picture sometimes. hahaha

How Far Along? 22 weeks, 7 days....120 to go!


Size of my Angel? 11 in.....the size of a spaghetti squash


Maternity Clothes? All


Weight Gain?  I think I'm doing okay, but don't really know.


Stretch Marks? None thank you Lord, still lathering oil and cream once or twice a day...Praying that they'll stay away


Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell


Sleep? It's hard for me to get a good nights sleep, between the bathroom breaks and tossing and turning.  But I'm managing. 


Food Cravings? Mexican food, salsa, and anything sour


What I Miss Most? being able to sleep and not feeling fat


Symptoms? none, no more scares either PTL


Belly Button? It's starting to come out but I'm just praying it goes back.  Did anyone else's pop, did it go back?  Really curious on this. 


Best Moment of the Week? Can't really say, knowing that I'm doing whatever I can for my daughter, even though her Father is clearly not going to act right.  Just knowing I've made an effort makes me feel like I tried everything to give her the family I'd hope she'd have.

22 weeks, 7 days

Happy Thursday, Ladies!!! 

21 Weeks

How Far Along? 21 weeks, 4 days....130 to go!

Size of my Angel? 10.5 inches....size of a banana

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain? Still not weighing myself, but when I had my scare last week and had gone to doctor I had not gained anymore.

Stretch Marks? None thank you Lord, lathering oil and cream one to two times per day...Praying that they'll stay away

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? Still not sleeping good, up having to go to the bathroom all the time and having bad acid reflux

Food Cravings? fruit, chocolate and grape slushes

What I Miss Most? sleeping well

Symptoms? None, too early, last weeks scare was bad enough to last me the next 19 weeks.

Belly Button? In and praying that it stays but sometimes I'm not sure it will

Best Moment of the Week? Last night my Dad and Mom both felt her move, you should have seen my Dad's face it was priceless.... Working on the relationship with my ex, it's a work in progress, but I've turned it over to God and praying he has a change of heart.

21 weeks, 4 days

(it's not the best picture to show the bump, but you can see it) Hard taking a picture of yourself