Millie's First Easter

First of all, I am SOOO thankful for Jesus and the Cross, which is the true reason for Easter; I am beyond grateful that he died and rose again on the third day for my sins.  I am so undeserving  yet so gracious for his gift. 

We had a great Easter, Millie was so cute in her Easter dress and we had a great time hunting eggs with her cousins.  We also went to an Easter egg hunt at church yesterday, at Buckhead Creek, our churches recreation fields.  

Here are some pictures from her first egg hunt Saturday and Easter today.

God Bless, 

Meredith 

If You Knew Me.....

If you really knew me....

You'd know that I have not always had the easiest road...

I've been hurt more time than I care to admit by friends, boyfriends, family...

I wear my heart on my sleeve.....

I experimented more than I would ever care to admit with partying and drugs...

I've had more than one abusive relationships and I've always justified their abuse, by blaming myself for something.....

Millie's father is gone and I'm finally totally 100% at peace with that and actually rather glad to be doing this 100% on my own and MY WAY....

I loath racist people.....If you have race issues at all, it kills me, Jesus created us all, how can you not like someone for the color of their skin, when God created them....

Millie is half black, a lot people do not know this, but I am not ashamed, she's beautiful and she's just who GOD  created her to be.....

I do not have a good relationship with my Mother, I'm trying to make up for this by my relationship with Millie and I'm sure it shows in all my facebook post of Millie, Millie's first, etc. 

I considered having an abortion with Millie b/c I didn't know how to face my parents, (we are Southern Baptist after all) and her dad did not want her or me after I got pregnant and we split up. 

As I have literally been asked by a person (in real life) I can assure you Millie was NOT a one night stand, we had dated for over a year when I got pregnant.....

I am a Daddy's girl BIG time, he's my hero  we've not always had the best relationship, but I tell my Dad anything over my Mom anyday....

I do not trust well at all, I've been burned by girlfriends, relationships, etc., so I have a wall up and it's just gotten taller since Millie and the issues I've faced with her Dad....

Happy Tuesday! 

7 Months

My Dearest Millie, 

You are seven months old, how did that happen?  You are such a sweet girl and you smile non-stop.  You are loved by so many and people stop us all the time to tell us how pretty and what a happy baby you are.  You love to snuggle with Mommy, I know one day you will not want to snuggle with me and just thinking about that day makes me sad.   As of today, you are about 17 lbs.  You love squash, banana, and applesauce.  You love table food; Mommy makes some of your baby food and others you eat out of a jar.  You love mashed potatoes and grits.  You are such a easy eater, you will eat pretty much anything, but you prefer "real food" as opposed to baby food.  

You love to talk and you love to pat me on the back.  You are still on breastmilk and you love to rub my face will you are eating.  Mommy enjoys the bonding time and as of yet, we have not had to supplement with any formula.  PTL

I love you sweet angel.  You are such a blessing and I am so thankful to be your Mother. 

Love, 

Mommy

Weight: 18.5 1/2 lbs
Dates to remember: said Momma several times on 2/22/13
set in highchair like a big girl 2/23/13