Friday, December 23, 2011

Fill In the Blank Friday

Fill In The Blank Friday

1. The best way to spread Christmas cheer is giving to others and singing.

2. The thing I love most about Christmas is sleeping late and being able to see my nephews open all their presents and see what Santa brought them.

3. The holiday season is a time for celebrating Jesus' birth, spending time with family and friends.

4. My favorite thing to eat at the holidays is Daddy's sausage balls Christmas morning and anything chocolate on the dessert table. :)

5. I will be spending Christmas with my family.

6. Tis better to (give or receive?) Give.

7. I'm dreaming of a peaceful and quiet Christmas. (but with four nephews don't think that will happen.) lol

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Christmas Wish List

Okay, so I know this is not traditional but to me, the best way to get what you want for Christmas is to 1. buy it yourself or 2. buy and get your Dad to pay you back for it so you know you go something you want.

So without further ado......

I like love coffee and it's just me, so what better way 1. not to take to long in the morning and 2. to not waste coffee. ;)

I don't know what else I'm getting for Christmas, but I'm sure I'll love it equally.

Also, please please please pray for me a full-time job soon, my oh so great job is going to be no more in a matter of weeks and I'm stressing over the fact that I don't want to mess up my A-1 credit and lose my car, I have quite a bit in savings so that will help. Please pray for me a job though.

Thanks ladies and Happy Thursday!!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011


Happy midweek ladies. We all know that I love my nephews even though my sisters and I do not have a good relationship, I adore my nephews; so, without further ado meet my newest

Jonathan Ray. Gotta love my boys.

I have finally started a little Christmas shopping, not much but hey so is better than nothing. I hope to really get going this weekend. Have you finished yet? Please pray for me a job, my job is all quote based and coming from a legal background I've never had a quota based job so I am failing miserably and they're looking for a new person and I'm looking for a new job. Please pray b/c I sure don't need the stress over my car note.

Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011


It's crazy to think that in two days I'll have 4 nephews, love my boys and one more wow....maybe one day we'll have a girl in the brew...(not holding my breath) hahahaha

I love my boys so I sure can't wait to meet the baby, even though I am not close to my sisters, I do love my boys.

Thursday I haven't decided if I am going to chill at the house and enjoy coffee and me time or drive down to Madina and see my sister and the babies room. We'll see, I can't wait to watch teh parade either way, maybe I'll go watch it with my nephews, that's always fun.

I will be working Friday so no black Friday shopping for me booo. :( I do hope to catch some deals Saturday with what the crowd didn't get.

So what's your holiday plans?

Happy Tuesday everyone!! What's your plans for the holiday?

Monday, November 21, 2011

My Two Cents, For What it's Worth

Okay ladies, I'm going to be blunt and honest and if I offend or you don't agree or like it, I apologize, but this is my opinion.

I loath racist people, seriously how can we (who are) call ourselves Christian yet judge so strongly someone just based on their skin color?

Yes, it's different in other parts of the country and world, but I live, was born and raised, and probably always will be in the South. Heck, let's talk facebook for a minute, I have never put a picture of me and my love on facebook for two reasons, 1. I like to keep it private, yes i blog about him, but seriously not nearly as many people read this blog, come on. 2. I like to keep somethings for myself.

But seriously, I was thinking on my 6+ hr drive home from seeing him last night, WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK. I am SOOOOO TIRED OF LIVING MY LIFE FOR OTHER PEOPLES APPROVAL. Tis why I stayed for 5 years with a man who called me whore, stupid, retard, hit me, put a gun to my head, chocked me, held me down against my will, told me his family would never speak to me again if they knew I'd dated a person outside of my racist.

When I started dating my ex, people were so happy, my Mom, my Dad, people at church, my Mom's friends, why, because he was the first white guy I'd ever dated since after high school.

Please tell me why that matters, if that's what your question is....then you must not live in the racisit South. I have lost friends and everything, been talked about, been called names all because i've dated someone who was not white.......but here's a really funny thing.....I'm not 100% white Grandfather is 100% Filipino, couldn't tell by looking at me, right? Who cares it's still my bloodline and I'm proud of who I am.

What I don't get the most is how people call themselves a Christian, sit in church every Sunday and listen to the word, yet, judge people based on the color of their skin. There is probably someone reading this who is thinking, gross, b/c I've dated outside my race or judging me, but may or may not admit it. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE !!!!

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 6 YEARS, I am with someone who does NOT hit, call me retarded, stupid, whore, worthless and I love him for him, not the color of his skin and if you can't be my friend and accept that and still talk, associate, or be friendly to me well than that's your loss and I'd hate to have to answer to God, who people forget made us ALL!!!

Thank you and Happy Monday Ladies!!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

So Many Kids!!

WOW!! They're having their 20th child!!!! OMG, enough already, I could not imagine having 6 kids led alone 20!!!! 2 is good, 3 I could do, but 20!!!!

I went to my nephews soccer awards last week and they were just so cute!!! I love those boys, I can't believe that in like 2 weeks I'll have a 4th nephew!!! WOW, I sure do love my boys.

Nathan and his award

Andrew and his friend and their trophies

and my buddy, Daniel

These boys make my heart melt, I couldn't imagine not having my nephews!!! Can't wait to meet Jonathan in just a few days!!! Yay!!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Life Is Good

Man it's been a while. Still praying for my love. I started a new job a month ago and I'm loving it. Life is pretty good hard times make us stringer that's 4sure.

Update on my love, still struggling for all the heartbreak he is going through and his kids as well. God says he doesn't give us more than we can handle and I am trying to believe that. I saw him Monday for about an hour and hope to see him later today after his appointment and I get off work. It's sad and hard to try and be happy when the ones you love are hurting and you know there is nothing you can do for them. They are saying that things are not looking as bad as first suspected and that with treatment we have some hope. I am still hopeful that he will let me all the way back in and we can share all the good and bad together.

Sorry writing from iPhone at work. Looking forward to finale getting me a car this weekend after almost 7, yes 7 months without one. It's been a killer. I'll post pictures of my new car next week.

Happy Thursday!!

Monday, August 22, 2011


I found out today that the man I love, the man that I thought I'd marry and spend forever with is dying. While trying to protect me he wants me to not be involved and move on. Easier said then done. My heart is breaking for him and for me and his children as well. I love him with all my heart and would trade places in a heartbeat with him. I pray that he knows the Lord and that I will see him again one day in heaven.

Please pray for him, his children, and me as well.

Things that you never though could happen to you~~

All I can tell you guess right now is I have been hit with a terrible life changing bombshell with some ppl I know. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for them and me both and that everything turns out okay.

thank you

Tuesday, August 16, 2011


I went to visit my boyfriend last night, drove 5 & 1/2 hrs each way, had a fabulous time or so I thought. I said I love you, he said I love you; then today we woke-up things were fine, we did his laundry, he held me and we watched tv and then he gets a call from his Aunt; we go back to watching tv, nothing seemed wrong. He had to go to work; I thought I'd stay one more night he said he thought it was best that I go on home b/c of his roommate and not knowning what he really thought of me staying there last night so didn't wanna surprise him with another night. So I left, then I texted him a few times, he finally texts me back on his break at work and says" "I'm going through some things right now and i think it's best if we don't see each other" WTF, really? Last night you tell me you love me and today you tell me on my 5 1/2 hr drive home, through text you don't think it's best if we see each other anymore?>???

What happened? What went wrong?? There's got to be more to this??? I'm not giving up, these have been the BEST 5 months, the ones with him. There's got to be a reason and I honestly don't think it's someone else I really think he's having issues.

I did text him and ask what was wrong, was it me, did I do something, is everything okay, was/IS there someone else???? I turned off my phone and haven't heard an answer as of the time I turned it off. PLEASE PLEASE pray for me and him and that he responds. I CAN:T move on or know what is going on till he tells me. If he honestly said yes he met someone else, it would actually make it easier b/c I could hate him, but nothing just doesn't help. 5 1/2 months, always great and we work out our fights, I was so blindsided by this.

Honestly I feel something really is going on with him and i don't think it involves another woman, I think it's family related and I pray that he sees and misses me the way I already miss him and it's only been 2 hrs. I know we always talk and I just didn't see this coming. I jsut wanna die right now, honestly that's how I feel. I would have rather him said there was someone else so that I could hate him. But I really again, don't think that's it, but is it me? is it our issues? is it my insecurities? What is it? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray I get my answers and my heart isn't totally broken again. PLease I so love this man and we've always talked about a future, marriage, heck he even proposed (I think jokingly though) once before, we've discussed marriage, kids, planning our future, I was again so blindsided.

YES I am posting this as I have been crying my eyes out for the last 2 + hrs so please excuse the spelling mistakes.

Pray for me please, I'm dying right noiw and again, pray I get an answer

Monday, August 15, 2011

Just Another Monday!

Have you ever had the best intentions to do something and just never do? That was me part of the weekend. Yes, I've had a migraine for the past 2 1/2 days, and I'm talking full blown yesterday, throwing up, dizzy spells, can't stand up for long. It was awful, if I had decent insurance I would have gone tot he minor med for a shot, but no such luck right now.

So, this morning I had a job shadowing interview and I really really need a job because I really need to buy myself some clothes for fall because bills really do need to be paid. SO I am hoping and praying that I get the job. Please pray I do for me.

So back to the weekend. I went to dinner with my Dad and nephew Saturday night while my Mother was out of town. I picked up my nephew and he asked me to call Papa and see if he'd take him to dinner. I told him I'd call but he had to ask and he had to get me an invite too. So he did and the 3 of us had a great dinner at McAlister's. Then yesterday, I finished laundry, cleaned, vacuumed, threw up a few times, took nausea medicine, yes all b/c I had a killer 2 and a half days of a migraine. If you don't have migraines, count your blessings and thank God, I'd do anything not to get them and them not to be so bad. I take a daily bp medicine as a preventative and while it helps, it's not a cure-all.

I went to see Final Destination 3-D Friday since I was off work. Note to self: this is your one and ONLY 3-D movie. (a 3-D movie for someone who has such bad migraines is probably not a smart idea and I'll never do it again!!!)

Today is Monday and since I went to a job interview/shadowing this morning, I am taking it easy and getting my run in this afternoon so that I can be lazy and sit on my butt watch The Bachelor Pad without any distractions tonight. B/c let's face it, I have my priorities in line.

Happy Monday!!!

Friday, August 12, 2011

Boob Tube Babble

Boob Tube Babble

So, let's talk t.v.

1. Of course I watched BIg Brother, I have to say that I wish it had been Rachel who left the house this week and not Adam....She annoys the heck out of me. Then of course in BB style, there is a twist and Brendon comes back. Ugh another week of being annoyed by Brendon and Rachel. G-REAT!!! Aren't we all so excited?

2. I am excited about checking out a few of the upcoming Fall shows that are coming out. 2 Broke Girls looks like it's going to be funny. Then The Playboy Club, I'm curious to see what it's like. Of course the favorites....The Amazing Race, I'm ready for it to come back.

3. Then we have Army Wives, quite possible my favorite series of all time. (as an adult) I am obsessed Love this show, I own every season on dvd and will buy this seasons when it comes out a t.v. too. Do you watch it?

So what are you watching. Go link up with Neely and Ashley and tell us. Happy Friday!!

Sunday, August 7, 2011



I'm cheating again with another copy/paste survey. I found the original survey here but I found it via here. (You may see a few more of these surveys coming up on my blog soon...I am in the process for applying for jobs).


What is your salad dressing of choice? 98% of the time it's Ranch, but if I go and get a grilled chicken salad from Chick-fil-A I usually get their Fat Free Honey Mustard

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Mexican...I love El Porton salsa and could just drink the stuff, not to mention having a margarita to go with it, what could be better?

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it? Mexican

What are your pizza toppings of choice? I only eat Cheese pizza

What do you like to put on your toast? Grape Jelly


How many televisions are in your house? 1..... I live in what would be considered like a studio apartment, but it's actually my parents detached garage

What color cell phone do you have? Black iPhone with a pink case

What does the first text message in your inbox say and who sent it? probably shouldn't say.....and my boyfriend....hahaha

Who was the last person to call you? my sister


Are you right-handed or left-handed? right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? yes, but I probably shouldn't share. hahaha

What is the last heavy item you lifted? boxes from my Dad's office....he's storage unit was broken into


If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? yes!!

If you could change your name, what would you change it to? No

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Yes, I love hot and spicy things!


How many pairs of flip flops do you own? Like 25

Last time you had a run-in with the cops? When I totaled my car in the ice back in February.... I thought it was going to be yesterday on the way to MO for my bday, but he didn't come after me, he went after the Mercedes, glad he had a nicer car, or it may have been me. hahaha

Last person you talked to in person? My Mom and Dad before they left for church this morning

Favorite Month? August, my birthday month, of course


Missing someone? my boyfriend

Mood? pissy, I haven't heard from my boyfriend since yesterday afternoon and I thought he was coming to see me for my birthday :(

What are you listening to? Movie on Lifetime Movie Network

Watching? the movie on LMN, but I am reading blogs, so I am kinda listening and looking up when it gets good.

Worrying about? Why the heck my bf hasn't responded and being upset b/c I was really wanting to see him for my birthday weekend.


What's the last movie you watched? idk, does LMN movies count?

Do you smile often? Yes, but can't smile right now till I hear back from my bf, I need to see him so I can smile!!

Do you always answer the phone? If I know the number I do; if not, I let it go to voice mail and return the call if it's really for me.

It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? my boyfriend, who is still at work at 4 a.m.

If you could change your eye color, what would it be? Blue, I think blue eyes are pretty!!

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? None, but I love Sonic Grape Slushes

Do you own a digital camera? Yes, I do photography, so of course!

Have you ever had a pet fish? Yes, and the last one was named Killer b/c he came out of my Grandparents fish thing b/c he had eaten all the other fishes. lol
Favorite Christmas song? IDK, I can't think Christmas right now. hahaha

What's on your wish list for you birthday? Well, since my birthday is tomorrow, I would like my bf to be here and spend time with me and something sweet and thoughtful from him! (Already celebrated with my family yesterday and I picked out my present from my Mom and my Dad bought me clothes I picked out.)

Can you do push-ups? Yes, but very few without starting to do the "girly" ones.

Can you do a chin up? Um NO!!! I have a bar and try, but I always have to use the chair when I'm doing P90x.

Does the future make you more nervous or excited? BOTH!! Life has been tough the last few years, but I hope it gets better!!! It's been better lately but I'm sad right now b/c my bf isn't here and I thought he was coming. :(

Do you have any saved texts? My phone saves them all...but none that I have "locked"

Ever been in a car wreck? Yes, unfortunately several and the last one was in the ice and my car was totaled. :(

Do you have an accent? Southern

What is the last song to make you cry? I have no idea!!

Plans tonight? Watch tv and hopefully see my bf and spend time with him. I hope he comes in town today!

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? Yes, going through a very bad breakup and everything that went on it was hell, but I am so glad I finally left!!!

Name 2 things you bought yesterday. bras, lol, and work paints

Have you ever been given roses? Yes!

Current hate right now? That I haven't heard back from my bf since I upset him yesterday and I want to see him for my b-day tomorrow SOOOOO bad!!!

Met someone who changed your life? yes

What song represents you? "All-American Girl" by Carrie Underwood

What were you doing 12 AM last night? Watching LMN movies waiting to fall asleep

What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? I hope my bf comes in town and texts' me back soon. I miss him and I hate I upset him yesterday and I wanna see him for my birthday!!!

Friday, July 29, 2011

Boob Tube Babble

Boob Tube Babble

Let's start with my favorite person on Big Brother. NOT!!!! I'm sure this tells you who I'm talking about without even looking at the picture below. "No one better come between me and my man." Ugh, yes, I am talking about Rachel!! Ugh she annoys me soooooo much. In fact, annoy may not be a strong enough word. Anyone else watch BB last night? Wow, Dominic had some words to say before he left didn't he? It really looks like this summer is going to come down to an Alum winning. Although, if an alum does win I hope that it is Jordan or Jeff. Yes, she may come across dumb but she is so sweet and I've watched them on Amazing Race and BB and I just think she is a real sweet heart, so yes I am voting for one of them to win. Heck, I will be happy if anyone ANYONE besides Brendan or Rachel win. Still trying to figure out what the heck Brendan sees in her. Then this brings us to last nights votes Dominic was sent home packing, which I was not surprised about at all. Danielle seemed to be, but I think if she had really payed attention then she would have seen that he was going to end up going home.

The BB Alums
The Newbies
And then of course, I also watched the RHONY Reunion this week. Anyone else watch it? I just can't stand Ramonia ugh, she really gets under my skin. As does Kelly and Alexis, yeah, those 3 all get under my skin. I can't stand the way Kelly talks to people and Alexis' posture and her manner, well that just says it all. Oh and don't forget Countess LuAnn who seems to think she knows everything. Yeah, while most of the cast annoys me, I still seem to find myself watching this show weekly. On an additional note, I am happy to hear that RHOBH will be back for season 2 this year!!! Yay!! However, I wish Camille wasn't coming back, but you can bet I'll still be watching weekly.

So what did you watch this week? Visit Neely here or Meghan here and link up. .

Happy Friday!!!

Boob Tube Babble

Boob Tube Babble

Let's start with my favorite person on Big Brother. NOT!!!! I'm sure this tells you who I'm talking about without even looking at the picture below. "No one better come between me and my man." Ugh, yes, I am talking about Rachel!! Ugh she annoys me soooooo much. In fact, annoy may not be a strong enough word. Anyone else watch BB last night? Wow, Dominic had some words to say before he left didn't he? It really looks like this summer is going to come down to an Alum winning. Although, if an alum does win I hope that it is Jordan or Jeff. Yes, she may come across dumb but she is so sweet and I've watched them on Amazing Race and BB and I just think she is a real sweet heart, so yes I am voting for one of them to win. Heck, I will be happy if anyone ANYONE besides Brendan or Rachel win. Still trying to figure out what the heck Brendan sees in her. Then this brings us to last nights votes Dominic was sent home packing, which I was not surprised about at all. Danielle seemed to be, but I think if she had really payed attention then she would have seen that he was going to end up going home.

The BB Alums
The Newbies

And then of course, I also watched the RHONY Reunion this week. Anyone else watch it? I just can't stand Ramonia ugh, she really gets under my skin. As does Kelly and Alexis, yeah, those 3 all get under my skin. I can't stand the way Kelly talks to people and Alexis' posture and her manner, well that just says it all. Oh and don't forget Countess LuAnn who seems to think she knows everything. Yeah, while most of the cast annoys me, I still seem to find myself watching this show weekly. On an additional note, I am happy to hear that RHOBH will be back for season 2 this year!!! Yay!! However, I wish Camille wasn't coming back, but you can bet I'll still be watching weekly.

So what did you watch this week? Visit Neely here or Meghan here and link up. .

Happy Friday!!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011


I'm loving that yesterday I treated myself to a pedicure (this is my guilty pleasure that I have not been able to do in quite a while).

I'm loving these nail polishes that I picked up at Target yesterday (the pink is the one I got them to put onto my toes at the salon). I love taking my own polish to the salon.

I'm loving that I've received two $10 off $40 at Rack Room this week in the mail. This is a sign right, I must buy some more sandals, right?

I'm loving that my boyfriend can say the sweetest things to encourage and cheer me up when I am down. Such a sweetheart.

I'm loving my new Vera Bradley wallet I bought the other day when I went birthday shopping with my mom.
I'm loving that I am planning on taken my nephews to see The Smurf's, I loved the smurf's growing up and I hope they'll enjoy the movie.

I'm loving that I will be having another nephew come November. Yay for nephews, so much fun!! My Dad is hoping I have a girl to help this brewed out one day. (me too, I love me some girls and girly stuff).

I'm loving that I may or may not have gone to Target twice yesterday and may or may not plan to go to a different Target today or tomorrow.

I'm loving my new blog makeover. Thanks Jenn.

So what are you loving? Visit Jamie here and tell us.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Boob Tube Babble

Boob Tube Babble

So this week I didn't watch a whole lot of tv, I did how every spend my nights running on the treadmill, which was usually durning the news and the start of Entertainment Tonight. Hey, don't judge, I've already said I'm a celebrity/all things Hollywood stalker. So, I did at least watch The Bachelorette Monday and of course my number one obsession, Big Brother. What the heck, Rachel is so rude, hateful, etc. I mean how mean can she be to others? I do have to say I am so proud to see Jeff stand up for Jordan. As one who's ex didn't stand up for me towards the end, that is a huge turn-on to me. I missed Teen mom this week, although I did catch some Law & Order reruns durning my late night sleep lacking nights. Ugh, can't stand not being able to sleep. I hope you've all noticed my new blog design, thanks Jenn for the great blog makeover. Happy Friday everyone. Visit Neely and Meg and link up and tell us what you watched this week. Happy Friday!!!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Boob Tube Babble

First off today I am going to start with Big Brother, did anyone watch it last night? This is one of my favorite summer obessions shows to watch in the summer. I have watched every single season and every episode, yes maybe that's pathetic but I don't care. Wow, what a twist, they bring back Evil Dick and his daughter, whom still seems to not like him very much.

And then there is there is the child murder, whom got away with murder, and most likely will end up with movie deals, book deals, tell alls, etc. It just makes me sick to think that this girl

Could want to party and miss her easier days, where she wasn't responsible for a precious gift from God that she could kill this innocent baby and get away with it. You know what that really tells us? Are system doesn't always work and you can have so much evidence but still get away with murder.

Well I don't know about your beliefs and we can agree to disagree on any or all of this, it doesn't matter to me, I don't push my opinions down the throat of others, but my belief is God will get her and I sure am glad I am not going to be her on judgment day b/c I'd hate to answer for killing a precious gift from God.

So what did you watach this week? I had a confessions post this morning too, I am in such a wonderful Friday mood, I get to go see my guy tonight and can't wait!!! It's been 2 weeks since I've seen him and I miss him terribly!!

Go visit Neely and Meg here or here and link up. Have a great Friday and weekend!!

Confessions and Facts

So, I have had several things weighing on my mind lately and so therefore, I am just clearing my mind. I'm sorry if anyone does not agree with or is offended in anyway that I did this post. There is no means to the way I list or post my thoughts that have been heavily weighing on me lately. So with that said, here I go.

  • I have had a hard family life and I am now at the point where I really don't care if I have a close or good relationship with my mother and sisters anymore, I can't spend the rest of my lift worrying about this.

  • My mother and I have just now started to be able to stand being in the same room without uttering hateful remarks about each other under our breath.

  • I have been called ugly names by my mother and I have lived for almost 29 years with the fact that my mother is ashamed of some of the things that make me me.

  • I have dated several guys who have either physically or emotionally abused me.

  • My ex was a raging alcoholic and I literally was in fear of my life at times and that has in some ways scarred who I am and how I see and think about men and alcohol too.

  • I have a fist mark/cracked/dent in my wall on my stair case from my ex punch it while trying to pin me down on the stairs in a drunken rage.

  • I hate the person I was for the past few years and what I allowed someone to do to me and how I allowed him to make me feel like I wasn't good enough or didn't deserve better than that.

  • I went to Al-Anon meeting trying to figure out a way to save a relationship with the man I thought I loved and it just showed me that I needed to run like hell.

  • I hate dislike racist people and believe that God created us all in his image and that no one is better than another.

  • I am in love and want everyone to now it and I don't care one bit if I loose friends, upset, disappoint, or if my relationship is unapproved of by others, including but not limited to family members. And with that being said.........

I have met the man of my dreams and he is not necessarily the first pick by many for me. He is a tad bit older than me, he has kids, he has a grandchild, but he loves me, supports who I want to be, encourages me, makes me want to be a better person, he is my heart, he is my strength. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I am 100% head-over-heels in love and happy!! I met him a couple a months ago and was totally blind-sided by meeting him. I had no clue that I would meet and fall in love with someone I met that night when I went out for the first time to just let loose and have a good time in almost 8 months.

I am happier after being with him for 5 months, then I was with being with my ex for 4 1/2 years. I am so blessed by knowing, loving, and having him love me. He is my heart and the absolute best thing that has EVER happened to me. This relationship is moving rather fast and while some don't think that we've known each other long enough, we don't really care we are doing what we think is best and what we think we want for our future. He is my heart and I could not picture my life without him in it. (and no, I am not getting married)

**And that is all I am telling you for now. There's a lot more to the story and a lot more that I'd love to share, but family has to know everything first. I just couldn't wait and hold it in any longer. I have never openly talked about him really on the blog and I have never facebooked a picture of us b/c I didn't want nosey some people to know that I was seeing anyone.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

I'm loving these shoes that I found at Target the other day. Shoes make me so happy as does Target.

I'm loving these 3 little guys who can get me to do a slip 'n slide at my age at the youngest ones 2nd birthday party. Yes, I at my old age 28 yrs. old did a slip 'n slide b/c they begged me. I'd do anything for them, even almost make hurt myself a fool of myself.

I'm loving that we only have 2 days left in the work week, come on Friday!!!

And I'm loving this little fur baby!!!

So what are you loving. Visit Jamie here and tell us.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

So What

So what if you don't like everything I do or say.

So what if my mother and I have a really love hate relationship.

So what if I don't go to church every single Sunday morning/night and Wednesday night. I have to answer to God for me not you, so why are you so concerned about it????

So what if you don't like every top or outfit that I wear, did I wear it for you?

So what if I am dating someone you don't like, is it hurting you?

So what if my mother called me a whore and I called her a bitch in return, who are you to judge me? (and yes, this really happened Saturday) I was also called a "skinny bitch" by her, that would have been a compliment last year when I was in my 140's but this year in my 160's not so much.

I am tired of living my life in fear of people not approving, ofcourse people aren't going to approve of everything I do, but acceptance is what I really want. I don't care if you don't approve of who I'm dating, what business is it of yours? Just accept me and move on. I don't care if youd don't approve of my hate for make-up and that I don't like to wear it all the time, don't tell me I should b/c that just makes me want to scream and spit fire out of my ears.

Okay, on that I'll stop. Hope everyone had a great 4th and Happy Tuesday!!!

Friday, June 10, 2011

Boob Tube Babble

Boob Tube Babble

Yes, I've said it before, but I will say it again, I am addicted to reality tv!! Obsession!!!

Let's start with Monday night tv: The Bachelorette

First off, Ashley does get on my nerves, but she was chosen by ABC and because I am obsessed love reality tv, I will watch even if she wasn't my topic pick, thank you ABC. I did feel bad for her Monday night with the whole jerk-o Bentley issue, but lets face it ladies, she was given a far warning about the loser jerk. She chose not to listen and when she sees everything I know she has to be saying, "man, did was I a fool". Opinions?

I missed 16 and Pregnant this week, but oh well, I'll catch-up this weekend on the replay.

The Real World: Las Vegas

Anyone watch the finale and reunion episode? First off, I don't think I would have ever gotten anywhere near Zito again after I found out what I did, but for that matter, I don't find him attractive at all and would never have liked him to begin with. Whatever, to each his own. But seriously, could you still allow yourself to get involved with someone that had Zito's past, I don't think I could. Opinions?

To participate in Boob Tube Babble visit Neely or Megs and link up. **Additionally, please continue to pray for me a job, being laid off sucks and I only have a few weeks left. Thanks!

Thursday, June 9, 2011


We all know these are hard times right now for a lot of people and for me, it's very rough and difficult. I've always been an independent person and liked to take care of myself. Well last year, I lost my job and have only found a part-time job up until this point. I found out this week as of 2 weeks I'll be out of a job. The attorneys I work for are retiring and I can draw unemployment, but that's not the same as working. I love to work and stay busy, I love working in a law firm, but I will take any type of office job at this point. It's what I know and love.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for me a job!

Thank you!!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Wee Bit of Me Wednesday

{one} how many times have you been a bridesmaid/maid of honor?

{two} what’s the last thing your do before you fall asleep at night?
I watch TV and Play Words with Friends (awful, right?)

{three} you just won your dream vacation, all expenses paid. where are you going?
To Europe, I've always wanted to go there.

{four} what is your favorite outdoor activity?
Swimming and being at the lake relaxing.

{five} as a child, what did you want to “be when you grew up”? did you end up there?
I use to want to be a teacher, but no I am not a teacher.

{six} what are 3 things your dream home would have that you don’t currently have?
Swimming pool, granite counter tops, a huge media room.

{seven} what’s for dinner tonight?
I have know idea.

{eight} if someone stopped by your house unannounced on a typical Saturday night, what would they find you doing?
Laundry and watching t.v. or movies.

{nine} what’s your average monthly water bill?
$30 ish.

{ten} what do you do to relax?
long bath and a glass of wine.

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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

The Bachelorette

It is no secret that I like I'm obsessed with reality t.v. From day 1 of The Bachelor and The Bachelorette, I've watched every episode of every season and even though I feel a little ashamed to say so, I really enjoy it all!!! Last night was a big night for Ashley, the masked man a.k.a. Jeff unveiled his mask last night.

I loved Ashley's "put your mask back on" look that she gave him. I think that she was wishing he hadn't taken it off at that point. Then of course there is the every so awful Bentley, who makes me want to reach through the t.v. and grab him and strangle him scream. I can't stand the guy and never could.

First, I don't find him attractive personally at all and then he speaks and I really don't find him attractive. Ugh, loser alert!!! What Ashley actually sees in him I have yet to figure out. When he came and told her he was leaving, I can't believe that she cried, um hello loser!! Although, I do think that the former Bachelor contest who told Ashley about him, Michelle, and him would make a great couple. One loser to another. Okay, that's mean, but that's how they portrayed themselves.

And last but not least, what about the "roasting" they did of Ashley, poor Ashley, that would have been hard to sit through. I mean, I know they were suppose to "roast" her, but William, wow, I can't believe he even said, "I thought I was signing up for Emily or Chantal, but Ashley?" WOW, enough said, I don't know that I would have forgiven him or given him a second chance.

Anyone else want to share there opinion on The Bachelorette last night, am I being too hard on Bentley?

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Wee Bit of Me Wednesday

{one} what’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?
Ugh, it was a guy that I had met through a friend, talked to him on the phone several times, then met for coffee at a local bookstore and was ready to leave within like 5 minutes, they guy couldn't carry a conversation, yeah, I was done then.

{two} if you could be any other person for one day, who would it be?
I would love to be Princess Catherine, she has great style and clothes and I just think it must be a fun life!

{three} what is your favorite kind of cheese?
Cheddar Cheese or Swiss, heck, I love them all with the exception of Gorgonzola.

{four} do you remember your 1st grade teacher?
No, but I remember my kindergarten teacher, what the heck!!

{five} who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
My Dad, he's my life line, he lets me vent and doesn't judge.

{six} were you ever in a school talent show?

{seven} who is your favorite fictional character?
I loved the Nancy Drew books when I was a kid it would have been cool to be her, I have always been intrigued by detective work/stuff. (I would love to be a crime scene or forensic investigator.)

{eight} can you open your eyes underwater?
Yes, I had a very bad habit of swimming with my eyes open when I was a kid, I love to swim and I was just too careless to worry about it hurting me.

{nine} do you look at the keyboard when you type?

{ten} when was the last time you took a nap?
This morning in between swimming and getting ready for work, I was worn out.

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Monday, May 23, 2011


I am so excited about the new season of The Bachelorette, which starts tonight, I can't wait!!!

I can't wait for the premier tonight, I still have tons of pictures from my nephews preschool graduation but I've been crazy busy and had no time to upload, I am going to try and do this while watching the premier. Is anyone else watching?

Friday, May 20, 2011

Boob Tube Babble and Life Ramble

Boob Tube Babble

1. I'm trying to figure out what to watch on Sunday nights now that Amazing Race is over, Desperate Housewives was on this week and I caught it. I haven't watched this season because I've been bad, but I did see this weeks episode and it was great as always.

2. Real Housewives- I can't say anything more than these women remind me why I don't hangout with a lot of ladies, no offense, but I am having enough drama still with my ex-bff and I can't imagine having a big group of women treat me like her. On the other hand, I will post more about this at the bottom of this post.

3. Army Wives- Rowland and Joan are adopting a baby with HIV, what a job!!! That's a little too scary for me and that's got to be a big task. I have always said I would love to adopt, I love kids and worked with foster kids for years, and they just touched my heart, but that's a big task to adopt a baby with HIV. Could you handle it?

4. The Voice- Battle Round #2- did anyone watch this, Blake pitting contestants against each other, come on Blake!!!!

Click here to link up with Neely and Meagan.

I am still behind on several shows and this week that I hope to catch up on this weekend. But now I have to get on my soapbox with a few things, so please, don't hate me and let me rant.

1. This week, a lot of schools had there graduations. President Obama was the speaker at a local high school in the inner city this week and let me just say, I listed to his commencement speech on the drive home from Missouri and I swear the two that introduce the Presidents, their speeches had me cracking up. Then when the President gave his speech, I was cracking up moor it was very good and he definitely spoke and joked around with them, so that they would listen and taken in what he said. What a way to go out, so proud of BT for being chosen and putting Memphis on the map in a positive way.

2. Rumors and lies, I have to say I have still been hurt by a lot of things that have resulted the last few months after my ex-bff and I had a falling out. I thought I was on my way to getting over it then I hear more rumors and lies this week. “Life and death are in the power of the tongue and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof” (Proverbs 18:21)

I believe in this scripture and I am a true believer that words can cause a furry of emotions and that once something happens, sometimes a spiral of affects happen thereafter. Well that seems to be what I am leaving through right now. I am having to deal with my ex-bff's lies and betrayal once again, I've noticed that a group of people that know us both have deleted me from facebook, therefore, I decided to call a few out on it and see why, what had I done or said to them? A few things I heard were very shocking and upsetting to me, I hadn't done such things, where would they have heard that, who would say those types of things? I talked to my parents about it and we agreed that most likely it was Ali, said but what can I do? My parents have encouraged me to forget about her, but easier said than done. See I am the type of friend who will love and stand by you through most anything, if you fall I'll be there for you and help you try and get back up. That's all I want from a friend too. Why would she say all these things, she already took a good chunk of money from me and friends, what else does she want?

I am currently praying about it, but must say it is a hard road, I have no female friends now and it is a truly lonely place to be. I haven't been invited to do blog meet ups, or anything in recent days or to girls night with the girls I was meeting with lately so i feel as if I have been laid-out to dry and people say, you're just not good enough to associate with because i've fallen on hard times. I have only a part-time job and I'm searching daily for a full-time one, do people not realize that others struggle and that it's okay to love them and be their friends even in the times of struggle? Do people just think I'm not good enough because I don't make a great amount of money, even people that don't make tons of money want to have friends. I just want to be excepted the way I am, flawed and all. I am so thankful for the wonderful guy I've met and even people aren't happy about that because he doesn't fit into their idea of who I should be with. I've dated the guy who came from a family of money and he physically hit me and called me stupid and retarded, I've dated the guy who came from nothing and he treated me like I was just someone else to walk on. So I date someone who is a little older, divorced and has kids, and I'm just no good? What's that about? What do people want?

Do people want me to go back and be abused again or be with someone that respects me? Enough is enough, love and except people where they're at, isn't that what the bible commands us to do? Yes, I don't always say the right words, are you perfect? No, so who are you to stand in judgment of me? I just want friends, is that too much to ask. I didn't get to have friends and hangout with other girls for 4 1/2 years because my ex didn't trust me, so why shouldn't I cry and be upset? I lost a lot of time in my 20's to make girlfriends, I just want some true friends!!!

Sorry for the soap box and let me just say, I am not having a pity party, I am just trying to think and be rational and see that others make mistakes and that I am not some awful person who is poison because I don't have all of what other people my age have. I've had a hard road being laid off last year, did I ask for it? No, so why judge me for it. I struggle everyday to pay my bills and it really sucks, but it's where I am at, like me or don't, just don't talk about me!!!