Monday, February 28, 2011

Oscars 2011 & The Bachelor

Did anyone watch the Oscars? It's hard to watch the Oscars the whole time when The Amazing Race is on. As you know, I am a reality show junky and I have to get my reality show fix. From The Amazing Race to The Bachelor to Big Brother, I watch them all and love every minute of being glued to the t.v. while doing so.

Oscar dresses a few of my favorites were:

I think Jennifer Hudson looked great, I loved Anne's red gown, the other three weren't my picks.
I think Scarlet Jo looked fabulous, it fit her well, I love her hair as well as the back of the dress.

Marisa Tomei I like the dress but not the hair, I think her hair could have looked better


WOW, what were they thinking?

So did you watch the Oscars? Opinions? I have to say I did get bored some watching, but channel surfed some in between shhhh don't tell.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

How do you forgive??

How do you forgive and move on? The bible says too, so that's the only reason you need to forgive, right? I am dealing with trying to remember how to love and forgive everyday lately; how does your "bff" spread so many lies and take so many friends, that you've done so much for away from you, how do you forgive her for it? Well, the bitterness is eating me up and I realize more now than before, that she really doesn't know Jesus and she needs salvation. Anyone who has to try and put others down to make themselves feel better or who can sit across a table from you and spread lies through text while you buy her ungrateful "follower" a dinner for his b-day is not a true friend. Anyone who worships themselves more than Jesus or who doesn't worship Jesus period at this point, but yet tells you they're praying for you and that you get back to your "good girl roots" is not a friend or a christian in my opinion.

The Bible always preaches about doing unto others, well that's the story of my life. I've always put my needs behind boyfriends, best friends, family, strangers, why? Because that's me and I have a big heart. What happens when I do that....I get kicked, walked all over, punched, knocked down, lied about, rumors are started, lies are spread......So what do I do, I cry and think why me for 2 weeks then learn, they are not a true friend because they don't know how to be a try friend. A true friend loves at all times, not lies, not cheats, not tries to make themselves look better b/c they are so angry and bitter.

Well, it's time to move forward and put her and them all out of my life, if they are stupid enough to be a "follower" of hers and believe her lies, then I don't need them period. If she is angry enough to be bitter, then let her have her lies and bitterness, what will they get her at the end of the day? A very, very, very lonely life.

So how do I forgive is my question? I forgive again, because God commands us too, but that doesn't mean that everyday when I look at my life, the missing ppl in it because she lied and spread rumors, it doesn't make that easier. But what can I do, they're not worth the time and energy. I took food to a friend when he had surgery and what does he do, believes her lies, why because she's a good talker. If I've learned one thing recently, it's that manipulators and liars are good at lying straight to your face and showing no emotion, that's what a liar does. On the other hand, someone who wants nothing but everyone to get along, gets upset, cries, etc. That's me in a nut shell, but you know what I'm learning they're not worth my tears and even if someone doesn't like me, I'm going to church whether you don't want me there or not, that makes you look bad in God's eyes NOT ME!!!

Please pray for me as I have lost too much recently to really feel the truth in anything. I want my best friend back, but until she stops telling me and everyone else that we need help and seeks help for herself, I don't need her and she does not deserve me as a friend. I pray for her salvation and that she will look inward and see that she needs Jesus more than anything and that people realize the kinda lies she's told and stop listening to her garbage.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Hacked-New Twitter ID

Okay, so there is a picture in question that I am hoping no one saw on twitter, if someone did see it I hope they never tell me or anyone else that they saw it. It was a picture my ex-bff took in regards to a spot for a tattoo on my right side of my body, it showed my bra and I'll leave it at that. ended up on twitter Saturday and I realized this yesterday, needless to say, I was mortified and when I tried to e-mail her she sent me an e-mail saying, "I have nothing to say to you" really? that's all I get? I pray for her and that she will one day realize the damage she has done and the friendships she has ruined through her lies. Needless to say, if you saw the picture, please never speak of it to m, I'm mortified. On another hand, let this be a lesson to me and everyone, don't give any friend your passwords!!!! I've learned.

Anyways, my new twitter id is: mer_thompson for someone of you whom I followed that I am no longer following because of this, please send me a follower request so I can follow your tweets again too. Please also continue to pray for me a full-time job, it's hard making ends meet all the time on a part-time salary.

thank you!!!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011


Saturday night I went to my bff's friends b-day dinner and it was HELL,., no on e at the table spoke to me and come to find out, she was texting lies about me to someone else.

I would NEVER EVER tell anything private we talked about and I wish I could say the same about her. Evidently she is spreading all sorts of lies and personal stuff about me and I have been blocked, deleted and called all sorts of names by friends (whom I thought were mutual friends, but I guess not; one of which I spent $80 buying b-day dinner when all this went down.)

I have been very suicidal since Sunday b/c of this and the lies she is telling keep getting worse. I pray for her but I can't take much more, please, please, please PRAY FOR ME!!! I almost tried to kill myself with pills last night and if it hadn't been for my dad being there for me, I would have taken all of them!!! Seriously, I don't know how I am going to go on. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME