If You Knew Me.....

If you really knew me....

You'd know that I have not always had the easiest road...

I've been hurt more time than I care to admit by friends, boyfriends, family...

I wear my heart on my sleeve.....

I experimented more than I would ever care to admit with partying and drugs...

I've had more than one abusive relationships and I've always justified their abuse, by blaming myself for something.....

Millie's father is gone and I'm finally totally 100% at peace with that and actually rather glad to be doing this 100% on my own and MY WAY....

I loath racist people.....If you have race issues at all, it kills me, Jesus created us all, how can you not like someone for the color of their skin, when God created them....

Millie is half black, a lot people do not know this, but I am not ashamed, she's beautiful and she's just who GOD  created her to be.....

I do not have a good relationship with my Mother, I'm trying to make up for this by my relationship with Millie and I'm sure it shows in all my facebook post of Millie, Millie's first, etc. 

I considered having an abortion with Millie b/c I didn't know how to face my parents, (we are Southern Baptist after all) and her dad did not want her or me after I got pregnant and we split up. 

As I have literally been asked by a person (in real life) I can assure you Millie was NOT a one night stand, we had dated for over a year when I got pregnant.....

I am a Daddy's girl BIG time, he's my hero  we've not always had the best relationship, but I tell my Dad anything over my Mom anyday....

I do not trust well at all, I've been burned by girlfriends, relationships, etc., so I have a wall up and it's just gotten taller since Millie and the issues I've faced with her Dad....

Happy Tuesday!