Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Life takes its turn

Well, things are looking up and down right now. It's no secret I have been through hard times hell lately, but things are actually starting to look up some. The only down part right now is kicking this 40 lbs I've gained since last year off. Yes, I have literally gained almost 40 lbs and every time I lose 5 lbs I seem to gain 5 lbs. Ugh such a struggle. Please pray I kick it before the summer, I really don't want to buy a one piece, I refuse. I worked hard for my flat stomach and will have it again!!!

Okay, lets get to the "up news" I met someone and while it's nothing serious, it's a happiness I haven't felt in quite a while. I filled my loneliness and emptiness with my ex-bff, the gym and unfortunately food over the last year, but things are starting to get better. I am taking EVERYTHING one day at a time. I have trust issues and this guy has definitely in the last 3 weeks taken notice of that. I have probably called him a liar for just about everything he has said and yes, I've even gone as far to check the court records, criminal background check, etc. (don't judge me, I've been through hell and I work for attorneys, enough said.) Anyways, he seems to checkout, I haven't mentioned it to my parents but they know I am texting all the time (I HATE talking on the phone, I do that all day at work.) And wonder where I've been sneaking off to some nights. hahaha

Anyways, he seems to be honest and forthcoming, I am not looking for anything serious and I was totally upfront about that with him too. It's nice to have a change from just hanging with friends and having a conversation with someone about your interest, their interest, etc. Weird to think I am "dating" again because I seem to always be in long-term relationships, but I am liking the change.

On another happy note, it made my morning and my realization that God does not forget his children, yes, I have been struggling so much lately with my faith through everything, that I didn't even know if God cared about me, but I am seeing that he does and if I seek him, he is faithful to be there for me. Thanks Megan, you really opened my eyes today. GOD IS GOOD!!!

Additionally, I have been down because for almost a year now I have been searching for another full-time job and yet to have found one. i know the economy has been bad and I am not the only one with this problem, but again, I am giving it to God and praying. Please pray for me a full-time position soon. I am blessed to have my part-time job, but let's face it, I miss being able to do everything I did last year and money is really running low now and now I don't have a car either!!!

I will leave you with this today: Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the ... For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper
you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

and last.....

Isaiah 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.

1 comment:

  1. Here's hoping you get a full time job soon girl!! When I was with my ex husband I gained 30 lbs and when I moved here & met my now boyfriend I went back to my normal weight. Happiness is the best diet!! :)