27 Weeks!!

How Far Along? 27 weeks, 1 days....91 to go!  

Size of my Angel? 14.5 in.....the size of cauliflower and about 2 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Doc still says I'm doing good 

Stretch Marks? No PTL, still lathering the oil and cream on 2 x daily 

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? Still not sleeping well, also been sick this week so that's not helping either.  Doctor did say I can take Tylenol PM so I'm going to try that.   

Food Cravings? Mexican, Chick-fil-a diet lemonade

What I Miss Most? Wearing my own clothes that I feel okay in, I wasn't back to my 8/10's when I got pregnant but I was within 10 lbs, so this is depressing.  

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Poking out more and more daily.  I'm so ready for her to be here already and when people say I really am not, I really want to be ugly and say don't tell me what I am and am not ready for.  I know there will be sleepless nights, but that doesn't concern me too much.  That's just part of the process and I already don't sleep well so it's perfect. haha

What I'm Loving Wednesday

I'm loving that Giuliana and Bill Rancic are having a baby... I love their show and how real they've been through the whole process of trying to have a baby.

I'm loving that all things Millie related are starting to fall into place, I can't believe that my precious girl is due in 93 days (13 weeks, 2 days).  I can't believe how fast it seems to be going, I love feeling her sweet kicks, although my dear daughter could slow them down between 2-4 a.m.  ;)

The greatest thing I know is that I am making the absolute best decisions for me and Millie regardless of what anyone else might think!!  Knowing that and that everything I've been through and continue to go through is to fight for what is best for her gives me such a peace at mind.  Through the good and the bad, this girl has changed my life and I haven't even met her yet!!!  I'm so protective of her and she's not even here yet.  I love the sweet comments some people have made and sweet friends who've shown love and support and even though there is a handful of people who still wanted to be negative, say hurtful things, etc. I know that for me and Millie my choices and decisions are best regardless of how anyone else feels about me having her or about her father's absence. 

I've learned this week, I can only account for me and when she ask about her Father one day, I'm going to be totally honest and real and say that your Daddy choose to leave and not stay.  It hurts like hell that he walked away from us after I refused to have an abortion, but I know without a doubt I made the absolute right decision.  She's my angel and though I long for him to love her, she'll be just fine without his presence.

Happy Wednesday!!

26 Weeks!!!

How Far Along? 26 weeks, 1 days....98 to go!  --YES ladies, we're in the double digits now :)

Size of my Angel? 14 in.....the size of a hothouse cucumber and about 1.75 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Doing good per doc, I still refuse to look at the scale! ha

Stretch Marks? No PTL, still lathering the oil and cream on 2 x daily (someday's just at night, but most days I do morning and night)

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? Nothing better than her sweet kicks, but waking up at 2 am every night is weird.  I'm use to not sleeping good before I was pregnant, but it's weird that it always seems to be about the same time I wake up every night now, since I've been pregnant.  

Food Cravings? Still tons of salads, spicy ranch and Mexican.... I could live on Swanky's taco salads everyday if I let myself. 

What I Miss Most? Actually, I haven't missed much this week except for the non cramps, I hate the feeling of the cramps, they're just like period cramps but I've been told it's my uterus stretching but it's been happening for days now. 

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Barely in, if I breath and  my stomach expands my belly button starts going out.  

26 weeks, 1 day....98 to GO!!

I am so excited about the future and about my precious Millie girl, I've come to peace with the circumstances surrounding us and her Father's lack of responsibilities and concern when it comes to her. While I can't say I've totally given it to God, I'm working on it.  Like I told him, you'll have to answer to why you abandoned her not me all I can do his love her and do the best I can for her.  She's my world and I couldn't imagine my life without her.  I'm so blessed Millie to be your Mom and I can't wait to meet you my little angel.  

On a sweet moment, my almost 3 year old nephew likes to talk to her, lift my shirt up and show people "there's Millie"  so embarrassing, but he's done this twice no in public, but it's cute too.  It's sweet when he tells me "I want to give Millie a kiss" then I lay on the couch, he comes up lifts my shirt to show my belly and kisses her.  It's the most precious moment and it melts my heart.

Happy Friday Ladies!! 

25 Weeks, 15 to GO!!!! and Breastfeeding Question

How Far Along? 25 weeks, 1 days....105 to go!

Size of my Angel? 13.5 in.....the size of a rutabaga and about 1.5 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Doing good per doc, I refuse to look at the scale! ha

Stretch Marks? No PTL, still lathering the oil and cream on 2 x daily (someday's just at night, but most days I do morning and night)

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep? Still waking up during the night, but I love it when she's active and kicking, such as sweet feeling.  BUT, I'd like her to practice her soccer plays during the day and not at night so much.  A girl can wish  

Food Cravings? Salads, spicy ranch dressing, Mexican 

What I Miss Most? the same-being able to sleep and not feeling fat and I know this sounds bad probably, but it's true... I miss margaritas, Mexican food just isn't the same without them. 

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Still in but if I raise my shirt and look at my stomach and watch as I breath, it looks like it's going to pop out. 

Best Moment of the Week? Working with my Dad to restore her crib and restain it.     

**Still sick of the crazy rude people who have things to say like WOW you're having a baby... like back up, b/c I am just as capable of having and raising a wonderful girl REGARDLESS of whether her father chooses to be involved or not.  and if you disagree than your an idiot.  You don't have to have the DAD to make a stable health child, it's his choice and he's an ass end of story.

Millie: 25 Weeks, 1 Day

So I am planning on breastfeeding, I got the Medela pump but I've read in the book you should exclusively breastfeed for six weeks and not bottle feed.  Did anyone do this or did you do some bottles mixed in during that first six weeks...Any advise on this or what's worked for you would be greatly appreciated.  

Happy Friday!! 

24 Weeks!!!

How Far Along? 24 weeks, 6 days....107 to go!

Size of my Angel? 12.5 in.....the size of corn and about 1.25 lbs 

Maternity Clothes? All

Weight Gain?  Still doing good so they say, I still think it's a crazy number!!

Stretch Marks? None thank you Lord, still lathering oil and cream once or twice a day...Praying that they'll stay away

Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell

Sleep?  I have a feeling I wont sleep good till after she's here.  She likes to keep me up or wake me up in the middle of the night kicking, she's preparing me for her arrival.  

Food Cravings? Diet coke---trying to stay away from it but I did have a caffeine free one yesterday and it was SOOOO good!!   

What I Miss Most? the same-being able to sleep and not feeling fat

Symptoms? None 

Belly Button? Still in but looks like it will pop one day. 

Best Moment of the Week? Finally putting it totally out there... One response from someone on facebook...."I figured something was up b/c your so obsessed with your weight and I didn't think you'd 'let yourself go'  hahaha too funny".   

**Still sick of the crazy rude people who have things to say like WOW you're having a baby... like back up, b/c I am just as capable of having and raising a wonderful girl REGARDLESS of whether her father chooses to be involved or not.  and if you disagree than your an idiot.  You don't have to have the DAD to make a stable health child, it's his choice and he's an ass end of story.

24 weeks, 6 days!!! 

23 Weeks and Counting

How Far Along? 23 weeks, 7 days....113 to go!


Size of my Angel? 11.5 in.....the size of a large mango and about 1.1 lbs 


Maternity Clothes? All


Weight Gain?  I found out I've only gained 3 more pounds so it looks like a lot of my weight I gained early on, the doctor told me yesterday some people can more in the beginning and some closer to the end.  


Stretch Marks? None thank you Lord, still lathering oil and cream once or twice a day...Praying that they'll stay away


Gender? Sweet baby GIRL.... Millie Ladell


Sleep?  Still not sleeping well, but making it work. 


Food Cravings? Sour candy - but the doctor wants me to stick with protein diet and not eat the breads and sugars, especially between now and my glucose test in 4 weeks.   


What I Miss Most? being able to sleep and not feeling fat


Symptoms? None 


Belly Button? Still looks like it's going to pop, but it's staying in there for the most part. 


Best Moment of the Week? Finding the perfect bedding and cleaning her crib to restore and paint it.   Knowing that it's only 16 more weeks from tomorrow till my due date is crazy, I feel like I have SO much to do and so little time!!! 

26 weeks, 7 days

(side note: I thought I wasn't showing too bad, so I thought maybe I wont get too big in the stomach and the doctor kindly told me wait till I hit 30 weeks, she'll explode and really show she's there.)  hahaha