I'm loving that Giuliana and Bill Rancic are having a baby... I love their show and how real they've been through the whole process of trying to have a baby.
I'm loving that all things Millie related are starting to fall into place, I can't believe that my precious girl is due in 93 days (13 weeks, 2 days). I can't believe how fast it seems to be going, I love feeling her sweet kicks, although my dear daughter could slow them down between 2-4 a.m. ;)
The greatest thing I know is that I am making the absolute best decisions for me and Millie regardless of what anyone else might think!! Knowing that and that everything I've been through and continue to go through is to fight for what is best for her gives me such a peace at mind. Through the good and the bad, this girl has changed my life and I haven't even met her yet!!! I'm so protective of her and she's not even here yet. I love the sweet comments some people have made and sweet friends who've shown love and support and even though there is a handful of people who still wanted to be negative, say hurtful things, etc. I know that for me and Millie my choices and decisions are best regardless of how anyone else feels about me having her or about her father's absence.
I've learned this week, I can only account for me and when she ask about her Father one day, I'm going to be totally honest and real and say that your Daddy choose to leave and not stay. It hurts like hell that he walked away from us after I refused to have an abortion, but I know without a doubt I made the absolute right decision. She's my angel and though I long for him to love her, she'll be just fine without his presence.