Changes and Glow

It's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that I'll be 19 weeks pregnant tomorrow, it's crazy, it seems like yesterday I was told I was pregnant. And while a lot of people don't seem to be very happy for me, yes, I've received crazy messages, talks, questions, etc. from people who know me pretty well and those who don't know me well at all. All kinds of questions, are yall going to get married, are you going to keep the baby, maybe you should give the baby up b/c I know a married couple who've been wanting and trying for a baby and haven't succeeded and well, you're not married so.....

All this to you may not seem like much, but to me, it's just down right hurtful. I get this is not the conventional way to have a baby, I was raised to believe you didn't have kids till you are married and while using birth control and other means of protection sometimes things just happen that are out of your control. If that's too much tmi, well too bad. ;)

What hurts the most is some not many but some who have said questionable things to me don't seem to care that they've really really really hurt my feelings, well it's my body and my baby and I may not have the most luxirous life, but materialist things are NOT what a baby needs, a child needs, love, joy, understanding, time, patience all things I totally am able to give my child without anyone elses opinion.

I do know what I am having and have for 2 weeks now, it will come, it will come but for now I am just praying for a healthy report tomorrow at my 20 week screening. I know it's a week early, but you have to go when your schedule allows.

I also PTL had not one but THREE job offers within like literally a 48 hours, Praise The Lord!! I took the one closest to home because it presented me the easiest and best travel time to get back and forth to my sweet angel.